Can I really forget?

They say time heals, time is enough, there's nothing else you need, nothing you can do to forget someone. Even though i wish that wasn't true, i have to agree. I wish there was something I could do, something that would just, help me forget. Like a sleeping animal that constantly wakes up every time there's a connection. 

Sometimes i wish life wasn't so connected. Like there were hooks you could unhook and ports you could sail away from forever. Why can't we be more like computers where you have a trash can for all things you don't need. Sometimes the biggest decision you have to take is whether to just delete or to shift+delete. sometimes you are better off without the restore option, however badly you might think you need it.

Why is it that even though you don't want to be reminded of someone, they manage to creep into your mind regardless. Why is it when you're just happy or you think you are, not saying you may not be, does there have to be this moment where you experience flashbacks. You can't stop them from coming, you can't do anything about them, they just arrive, without any invitation. That trail of thought where for a second you're thinking about where to eat with your boyfriend and the next thing you can't help but remember are the shitty cheap ass dates you went to with your ex in college. 

I'm not here to bitch or bash, i just want to know one thing, when will we truly forget? Or is the question that i should be asking myself, why do i still remember. It's not cause you still love him, could it simply be because you've known him for far too long? Will i ever find the answer? Even if i don't, would you believe me if i say to you, i don't need the answer, i just need to forget?

People say you need to forget, you just don't have to think, sounds pretty easy when they do but impractical for an over-thinker like me. Oh what i'd give to forget, to forget it all, even the good. I know it sounds harsh, but sometimes life has already taught you what you need to learn out of that lesson. Sometimes it's the same lesson over and over again until you've all but by hearted it.

So what do we do? I wish i'd know. If you know a way, if you can show me the light, please do. I'm terrified of remembering, terrified of the past, terrified of not being able to forget it, terrified i may be living in my past. I need to move on, i need to forget but the question is, can I?